top student
how embarrassing
when u reject my work infront of everyone
i'm speechless since u say the design look flat
i admit i did it without a plan and arrangement
thats y it look so normal
because of ur reject
i did better design
left-rejected right-after reject work
maybe win for me
not even is important but
is only aim in my life
赢不是一切,而是唯一。
want to win
want to be the top
want to be the outstanding
is what i live for
my 20 years
was amazing
the road full with big rocks
the sea full with big waves
the crowd full with stingers
the family full with tears
the friends full with fakers
the school full with liars
and i keep tell myself this
but
in my deep in heart full with ego
nobody can accept my ego
until today
is huge
even my parents cant take it sometimes
they keep ask me dun think too much and stress myself up
but
the stress never been in my world
never and ever
stress is kind of enjoyable moment
me, Doreen
a student
who scholarship
since secondary school
is lucky or fate
i really dun know
but i appreciate
but sadly
i have a brother
who dun have a matured thinking
all my scholarship were used to paid for his debt
i still rmb that times
i only 15years old
a form 3 student
use out all the scholarship money
to help a useless brother
how come i can be so strong
and calm
to overcome this kind of problems
until now my brother still the same
college life isn't easy and peace
half work half study
everyone's praise me
i very independent
in fact i have no choice to be independent
i have no choice to leave my hometown so far
bcs my parents didnt even can afford my fees
i have no choice
to stand like a man
to walk like a man
to talk like a man
21 years coming
most of them graduate d
but i still in college
a target
since 15 years old
cnt achieve anymore
a 1st bmw in my age of 21st
i have to let go the dream
and fight for my 2nd dream
the 1st billion in my life
before age 30
i know i can do it
because i believe
God always be my side
* im a free thinker *
when ppls ask about whats ur dream about
i will keep silent
bcs the dream will become a joke
for them
when ppls ask about why is design
i will keep silent too
because
that's my life
and i born to be
*recommended book*
law of attraction
is a nice thing
it make my world such
amazing
but once u apply wrong
u really get into shit
n i try to climb out from the shit
bcs of apply wrong attraction
my sister
very happy
because she how to apply the law of attraction
in her life
i feel no worry about her anymore
because she in my mind
just like a baby
keep crying finding mummy
i keep pray to God
make me stronger
make me as a fighter
to overcome all the problems appear in my life
i used to tell my parents
* if i wan to be bad,
i want to be the worst among everyone.
if not i wnt be a bad person.
if i wan to be good,
i want to be best of the best,
if not i wnt be a good girl.*
but
remember
That's no free meal in this reality world.
* black can be beautiful if u see it in different way...*
dismiss blog today
with
by: Doreen