为什么？

今天的我

心情很忐忑

接到了

你的电话

很开心听到你的声音

可是

你却给我坏消息

很不想面对

但  却要勇敢面对

真的是新的一年新的考验

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Trust

The trust btw a couple

Is really important

If cnt trust each others

Pls dun get tgt

It will bring suffer only

I cnt trust him in 100%

Maybe is too many times get betray

Haiz

Should I give him a chance

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what a boring day

today

supposed to be end of the world

but

it end up as a brand new day

the 5th day of the working day

damn boring

damn free

within one week

done 1 catalogue with full pic for 2013

2 different fair flyers

retake all products photo

and today i so free d

working time from 10am-6pm

my boss havent reach yet

alone at office

tomorrow going to KL fair

2 days i will coming bk again for celebrating 

christmas at Melaka

afterthat will go KL again till 1st of January

then bk melaka and maybe penang too

8th of January will of to KL again till 8th of february

then 8th of february continue my CNY fair till 24th of february

afterthat off till the next fair at Ipoh

then bk penang

fight all along the journey

to get better results

after 3 months

will be a brand new me

^^

------surrounded with loves------

i'm totally speechless

can u?

pls stop misunderstand us

and pls stop jealous

we are nothing and just friend

the first time i saw u

i thought u are a matured girl

not like those school girl

but i was wrong

totally wrong

i be friend with u

so when we out u wnt feel so alone

i wanna let u know 

i'm a sporting girl

and i and him are friend

but end up

u still misunderstand

n even worse

u said i like him to him

what a funny statement u had made

if i like him

i never ask u out tgt

if i like him

means i like all the guys around me

hours phone call

and seconds msg

still considerate as not much talk

i think he should be 24/7 talk to u in phone

we at same college

having meal tgt is normal

talk abt college thing is also normal

why u want to be so childish

do u try to think 

if he share with u college stuff 

what is ur feeling

u will said

"why always talk abt ur college stuff with me?"

girls girls

stop being childish

and try to think for him if u can

as a friend

i dun wan u guys unhappy bcs of me

i'm sorry to drag a buddy 

in a hard situation

>.<

speechless

The day when u not around

After so many years

I stay outside and seldom go home

Now I have packed my things

and go home for 3 months

When the day I leave penang

I meet those crazies buddies for last

When i'm home

I miss them so much

No dirty jokes

No laugh

No rushing assignments

I still planning this whole week schedule

The 1st day I reached home

I get fever

Bcs stay in car for too many hours

And the whether is too hot

When I on my way bk

He call me n tell me a super bad news

I feel like going bk

The lecturer that I like

Is now paralysed in hospital

I miss the day he kap siao with me

Haiz

Everything is faith

He called me few times ytd

and we talk quite a long time

I know he is boring

When everyone is holidays

He is on working

Haha

Anyway

I really miss those buddies

Having meal together

Doing assignments until late night

Having extra class with 2 craziest guy

I miss everything

3 months

I hope it pass fast

Good luck to everyone

All the best and take care

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I'm bk after busy semester

Finally

The heaviest sem had past

Cnt really think abt the result

Hope it will be ok~~

I on my way home

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he really is Google

first time see him so serious

and i really get shocked

another 2 software 

i learn today

is so fun and easy 

flash back dreamweaver

and i realise alot of thing is easy to do

just the way that lecturer explain is different

so what we get and learn is different too

so happy 

that i got him

as my private tutor

really thanks alot of the guides

the awkward moment

my ex wanna get back with me

and date me

haiz

i have no feeling towards him

but he doing his best to get me back 

and i cnt stop him for everything

the only i can do is 

tell him we r only friend when we meet each others

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unlucky day happen to me

is week 5

and on deepavali

my careless

and cause a lot of trouble to everyone

my whole school bag get stolen by break the mirror

when we have breakfast just around the corner

damn it

everything gone

even assignment

my laptop

hardisk

sony Tab

wacom pen

bonia wallet

ic

bank card

RM500++ cash

spec

hse key

broadband

haiz

is my everything

and bcs of this 

he got the chance to near me

i speechless to my careless

the only thing i can do is redo everything

the 1st person i call is my parent

the 2nd person is my ex

bcs he just around there

and the 3rd person i call is my buddy

they really help me alot

owe them a big meal

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today

2nd public holiday

in this week

working at prai

and buddy call up and wanna go out tgt

for sure he with his gf

we have our dinner at pizza hut

i wonder y he dun wan sit with her

and sit beside me

>.<

and he really dumb like hell

keep talk abt college stuff

and make his gf disconnect

and i try to avoid college stuff and so his gf can talk tgt

>.<

even i car

i feel wanna slap him

i totally speechless

the whole time he talking with me more than his gf

i think ppl that dun know us will thought he is my bf

walao~~~

how come the world got this kind of stupid guy

i dun wan ppl misunderstand me

i dun wan ppl gf jealous at me

bcs i know thefeeling of jealous 

is really suffer

and

jealousy kills

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good new is

bcs of my buddy help

his fren found the one who stole my bag

they catch the ppl and ask them to give back everything 

if not they will break their leg

i just hope i can get bk my wallet and laptop

others lost d also nvm

my data

my researches

i really need them alot

hope everything will go fine

pray hard for that

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anyway is week 6

a tired n busy week

almost dying

with assignment and working

hope i can pass through this sem well

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you, me and him

you,

my buddy

me,

the only one

she,

my bff

he,

the past tense

today is friday

and this blog is abt ytd night

which is thursday night

we dun have motion class

*even have i plan to skip his class*

waiting for you to have our dinner since 5pm

decided to go "jiao sai"

* small mamak stall near our campus*

when we reach there

is abt 6.30pm

bcs u only can go back at 6pm

was a little raining on that time

we sit there and have our tomyam maggi goreng

afterthat

we start to chit chat

all those grandfather grandmother stories

were out too

and i found out we like to talk abt car

abt sport

abt food

and so abt places

so plan a trip before intern

1st we wanna go sitiawan for food

then along the way to pangkor

and Legoland

and u say u drive us there

it make us so happy and excited

LOL

we sit there about 3 hours

the last 30min

our friend reach along the way frm KL

after friend's meal

then only we home

friend overnight at my place bcs is too late to drive bk 

and so suddenly 

he (my ex) text me

and ask weird stuff

and i answer everything honestly

he wanna patch up with me

and tell me he cnt even let me go

he very suffer for this 2 months

and blablabla~~~

i dun even think to get back to him

bcs i feel my life is better without him

im so sorry 

because i only can be friend with him

is nt worth to me to get back 

and let myself hurt again in future

i ard have another guy in my heart

even thought i know that we are impossible

after i know the guy

love is just that simple and nice

when i see the happy face

and feel happy too

the feeling is sweet

tonight.........

tonight

we try 3ds Max together

we have KFC together

we explore windows 8 together

u seen like very tired

but u still keep on trying to get what i want

u make me feel so bad

when waiting the rendering

u show me ur hse

the way from my hse to ur hse

although i really have no ideas where is the place
>.<

u show me ur uni

it so tempting
the enviroment
the place
the view
even the sky
@@
is so different from malaysia

after show me ur uni
because of wanna make me crazy
u show me what i really crazy at
which is the
Designer exhibition

and u said
will bring me there next time

oh God
thats my dream
to visit this kind of exhibition

sometimes i really admire u
in this young age
u having great achievement
which is not every youngster can do

u are the next one i target to fight with

thanks for teaching me so many things
no matter in software
laptop stuff
or even
design sense

i really appreciate it

maybe everyone will misunderstand us
but we know who we are

maybe we are really close sometimes
doesnt look likes a normal friend
but more to buddy

thanks for everything
thanks for the time

i owe u a big big meal
when i think soon
i have to leave penang for 3 months
is really a hard things for me d

the day cnt eat together
cnt do work together
cnt crazy together
and worse cnt watch movie together

used to it the days with u

when i have problems
no one can teach me and help me

i sure i will miss u alot

but nvm
i will skype u
haha

hope everything will be alright



*sound like i like him but actually nope*
*just a good buddy that always like hang out tgt*

you know what?

How u see me

is up to u

God create friends for everyone of us

God also create different characteristics for us

so 

u maybe not my type of friend

or

maybe i also not ur type of friend

so forget about so called "friend"

live as who u are

---------------------------------------------------

i dun really care i got u or not

u are pass by passengers in my life

who fucking care about that?

just said what u wanna said

u words cnt do anything to me

as i wrote before
true friend doesnt need that much
few is enough
and i glad that i have few of u
that always be my side

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this 2 weeks
accompany a mr lonely
who cnt meet his gf for few weeks

keep hang out with him and my buddy
1 week 2 movie is too awesome
hope i can go watch movie everyday

our next plan
---sing K---
---skating---
---movie again---

and
end of the year trip to
Legoland and Singapore
hohoho
of course not only me and him
still have others buddy as well
included his gf
a funny girl i ever meet
>.<

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before movie
shopping with sis
buy 2 pants
1 skirt
3 tops

is just too great can shop around
without thinking about budget
hehe

after intern
i can bk to the life in 2009
spend my own money

is too happy
and waiting for the day reach

happy movie day

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i'm back

Looong time didnt blog 

and im back

this few weeks

busy with assignment

of course wnt forget to enjoy too

happy

when i get a great new

from my twin brothers

as a training student

i can get full payment as full timer

so happy

they are my big supporter

love them so so so much

_____________________________________

first time join halloween

that held in EAA 

so

haha

dress up like a vampire

my eye even bigger with the contex len

fake eye lashes

and some eye shadow

first time with contex len

take half an hour to wear

tears keep dripping

until my eye like rabbit 

haha

i like blue contex len

is super nice

^^

_________________________________

wanna catch ur attention so badly

the law of attraction will just happening 

___________________________________

JJ

having his STPM soon

1 more month to go

we finally can date each other

the day we have been waiting for years

i believe u can do the best

just likes ur pmr, ur spm

love u and waiting for u

all the best and good luck

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first tried on typo

haha

feel fun and nice

^^ 

will try to do more for portfolio

stay happy

BY: DOREEN

初恋说的话

写华语不是我的强项

今天不知怎么了

又晕又呕又泻又发烧

呕个不停 也泻个不停

回来的时候 都好好的

突然这样 学校也去不成

在巴士上 没能睡的好

看到初恋和他朋友的对话

说 我是他最爱的那个

只是当时不会珍惜 所以才失去

说自己很笨 不会好好的保护

看到留言的我

当作没看到 可是我知道他很后悔

现在的他 跟以前的他 还是一样

很不成熟 很不长进

可能是我变了太多吧

他还是一样那么关心我

那么疼我

可是 我们都只是朋友

分手的我们 返回原来的样子

就只是朋友

可能很多人 都做不到

但我 却不一样

毕竟那是曾经了解过我的人

熟悉 却又谋生 的人

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One sentence

One sentence means everything

Just love the way he is

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the Mr Right

an unknown relationship between us

too many similiar characteristics that we have

haha

u say im too kind 

thats y God let me meet u

so u can protect me frm bullies

i just laugh secretly

( bcs i know that im not that kind as u think)

most of our conversation is about money

about business

u keep ask me to stay with u at ur place

so can earn money together

i told u i plan to move there bcs of u

and i share with u my plan

u ask me not to worry

u will fully support

this is why i will choose u 

we are money lover n workaholic

we have same dream n same goal

lets fight for our future

week 7

Laptop spoiled

and cnt do works for 4 days

luckily got his help

if not i really will get crazy

bcs of my laptop
he get bk under a heavy rain n wet in class

feel so guilty
>.<

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stay at lab till late night for these days

and stupid rumours spread around again
damn

why we always get related to each other

he got girlfriend d
n i got boyfriend d

haiz
choose to ignore
speechless with my college people

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week 8 coming
i done all my stuff
remains the motion graphics video and 3D works

next week gonna to stay back till late night
rendering really will kill us
anyway enjoy my college life

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holidays just around the corner
genting trip cancelled
due to he lost his wallet and everything also lost

have to wait till the week b4 i start interm

feel like cant wait anymore
wanna go find him so badly

wanna spent time with him
go trip with him
play remix with him

he told me that he bought a hse at his place
 and i really cnt believe

is awesome

he is the 1st guy i meet that
have a big dream n live in  his dream

we are both taurean
is so coincident

friend around me is all taurean
we have same goal
same dream

anyway if u didnt work hard everything will be empty too
no pain no gain

^^

just stop it

today is public holiday

getting up very early 

and have a breakfast with sis n him

start to do my motion graphic

start to try everything here

we sit at Starbucks

and do our things till movie time

first time movie with him

keep sms-ing

is quite annoying actually

but luckily the light didnt disturb my sight

resident evil

 a good movie

a good effects

a good 3D modelling

story line is abit boring 

compare to last one

we have our lunch + dinner

tgt with 4 friends

they feel so strange to him

very good manners to him

hahah

i know

they sure say sth 

they guessing sth btw us

but we are really nth

maybe suddenly very close to him

rumors sure spread around

anyway

i choose to be ignore

i enjoy the day

with him n without him

start a new level of life with remix

with the DJ in my life

TGIF

TGIF
hehe

reach college in early morning

join 3D class for learning xtra things

we whole class received a good news

which we have xtra class for digital illustrations

from Kelvin

for me

it still the same

bcs is up to u wanna improve or not

just like moses class

they didnt take it seriously

didnt ask for more

so it will be the same for kelvin class

somemore we have no attandance

no mark for that

1 week might be have to finished 1 illustration

i dun think they can make it

as our final is very heavy

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long chatting with ipoh buddy

sth funny happen

i lend my hand to him

and he say thanks and i reply welcome

suddenly bcm so awkward

normally btw us no thanks n sorry

bcs we are really buddy

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i waiting for his call until 12sth

n i fall slp

he call me when he otw bk home 

which is 2.30am

and we talk from 2.30am to 5.30am

our new topic for recently is disco remix

he feel so interested about DJ stuff

and i feel so interested on music

he do all the remix n i be his 1st audience

tell him to improve more

so i download music maker 

main purpose is for my motion graphics and final year projects

minor purpose is for him

actually we just friend

very very best friend

and we like each other

thats all

to be continue to learn more about software

the buddy in my life

i have learn a lot of things from this buddy

know him 2 weeks ago

he is my college lecturer

at college 

he is my lecturer

but after class

he is my buddy

maybe he is a virgo

thats y we got a lot of things to talk

to share

for me

he is prefect in every things

no matter software

or personalities

maybe his style abit weird

but so far it really does not matter to me

he taught me alot of AI technique

which my previous lecturer didnt taught

very appreciate him for his precious time

thanks GOD let me meet him

let me have a chance to be even prefect in my way

is all under my expectation

there was a meeting ytd

is about the final year committee

before the meeting

i ard know i will be the president

so called chairman

bcs of all the GM lecturer strongly recommended

they actually discuss within themselves

when the moment they purpose my name

i know i will be death

and thanks him for telling me earlier

so i prepared b4 im there

is a happy thing

and also the sad thing

i wish is all under my control

about all the members of the committee

some i dun really recommended

is bcs for me

they really cnt

is all someone fault

y absent on that day

haiz

i speechless

just hope everything will be ok

happy go lucky

no one know the actual story

behind everyone sure have a story

......

i saw an article

talk about forgiveness

in my heart what really happen 

is i ard forgive him 

when then moment i start talk to him like normal

for me

a couple after break up still can be friend

bcs they know each other well before

i didnt delete him or block him

i even stronger than i think

i accept everything he did

n the reason y

when the moment

i crazy around with my buddy

with the words

dear, baybeh, b or anything

he start to be annoying

i really dun know what he trying to do 

he can have his own life

but i cant

thats just funny

when i post at status said im so excited n happy

and my buddy comment on it

and i just reply my buddy

is about a trip to genting with Sebastian

a guy who i know for 3 years+

he try to get my heart

n he almost get it

but not yet

with him

everything seem to be so funny

because we talk like we dun care each others

but in fact we do

a long distance call always kill us

bcs we cnt hear properly each other talk

but always

we talk more than hours

for us

who call who is the same

is just happy i got him as my buddy

about JJ

he now very stress on his coming stpm

so i dun disturb him as always

bcs i know he didnt text back is 

bcs he forget where he put his hp

he always a careless boy

no matter JJ or SC

they both is my brothers

i prefer this than be a couple

love them forever

^^

say yeah~~

U are nothing to me anymore

the respect was gone

without u

i even stronger

even happier

welcome new friends

that come into my life

recently

thanks for every friends' supports

and console

and now on

i even happier now

I even happier now

he say wanna come M'sia and stay here

bcs of me

but i stop him

the life here never suit him

he deserve better life there

he keep waiting

n i keep fail him

bcs now i cannot decide

my heart still there

and

JJ is my answer

when the moment i choose to trust

when the moment i choose to trust

it always break

is all my faults

is all my mistakes

let him have a single chance to fly out

i cry

i laugh

because idk what can i do somemore

the love isn't love anymore

the trust isn't trust anymore

the heart isn't there anymore

i thought i only need him 

no need any friend

but he thought me only need freind 

no need him

what a funny answer ever

i hope the moment when i saw everything

i was in the middle of the road

i rather not to know

also dun want to know that much

y i choose him on that time

y i accept everythings he did even i dun like

y i accept the apologize of him in earlier time

everything is faith

i cant do anything

i just accept it

i hope without him 

i would even fly higher fly faster

stay strong no matter what

Life isn't easy

So just take it easy

Along this 20 years

Up down up down

I learn to forget, forgive and appreciate

I learn to trust, hold n let go

I learn how to protect myself

I learn how to play on the safe side

Whenever I down

Whenever I lost

I know I always must stand still

I know I have to trust myself

I know I am the only one who I can trust

Ppls around u n u will never know who r they actually

The mask is always there

Be urself n trust urself

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it happens again

His pattern start again

Like he cnt control himself

I hate

I dun like

But I trust

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why

Someone ask me before

why u have so many best buddy 

why all the best buddy treat u like their girlfriend

i keep think back the question

and i really have no ideas

maybe the way we treat each others

the way we be each others audience

honestly

i know most of them from internet 

and we know each other more than 3 years

we didnt meet each others before

but we know each others well

the friendship is even stronger than relationship

friends again

I like to make friends around

but sometimes

i really hate those so called FRIENDS

they are just too fake

too friendly 

too evil

in my life

i have alot of friends

but

the true friends are only few

they're the one who always stand beside me no matter what

they're the one who always care me no matter how

they're the one who always help me no matter when

their support

their care

their love

come stronger than family sometimes

between us there's no sorry

between us there's no secret

between us there's no lie no suspect

only believe

JJ, SC, GO

the three buddies

we meet each others online

but the friendship come stronger than others

EC, JC, LL

the three brothers

we meet each other at fair

our relationship even closer than family

when the moment i step in the college

i thought i can mix with everyone

but i know i cnt

sometimes they very close with me

sometimes they just far away from me

i cnt even explain

how this can happen

anyway

just let it be

learn to let go

learn to forgive

the only sentence

I change myself better than ask ppls to change

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thank u

Reach penang early in the morning

And make him wait me for so long

He cnt even slp although is very tired

Thanks alot for waiting me back

Thanks again for the present

Before back penang

My dad bought me 2 new shoes

Thanks dad for everythings

Now at penang

He appear n told me his hp lost again

Whatapp with him all the day

Thanks for making my day

Learn to appreciate everything around

Things go and come

Ppls go and come

Love the ppl u want to love

Do the thing u want to do

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what a boring holidays

first time i pass my holidays so normal so boring

at bookfair i hunt 3 books, 7 sketchbooks and some cute stuff

while working i ponteng

go the curve Papier

one of the shop that i like most

over there i hunt fews pieces of scrapbook paper

keep sketching to improve my skills
^^

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over a month
we contact back each others
and the topic still the same
and my answer will be still the same


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friday 
is coming
what a nervous and happy day

result is coming out
i have to close my eye once again
is too bad
i cnt really to look at the result
even though i ard did my best for everything
and oh yeah
i get what i expect
but i still feel a little bit of disappointed
i always the greedy one

anyways happy with that result

besides that
i dye my hair again

a very sharp red under the sun
hehe
i am so happy with my hair colour

new look for KLCC fair
for a new sem
for a new me

after dye my hair
eat again
satay celup, crepe cake
twice a week
really fat

so fast
have to bk penang d

a crazy busy life start again here
busy working
busy studying
busy promoting


i enjoyed my holidays although is abit boring

my holidays

holidays

busy working

but end up standing at a stupid fair

no ppls

no sales

no commission

i need money so badly

plan to work again after 3 days rest

>.<

my heart

So sorry that my heart

Always love others

Care others

No matter how much

I love

I care

I still choose the one who love me most

SC and JJ

Two brothers

That always beside me

Care about me

And love me

But I can only love u as my brothers

As my best buddy

I do very love u guys

Sorry for everything

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im so blur

Why is u

Suddenly appear

Suddenly disappear

I almost going crazy

I worry

I nervous

I waiting

But u act like u dun care

What u had said

I just can take it as a joke

Bcs I know I cnt be serious

Keep waiting for nothing

If u really care

I wont be like this today

If u really love

I wont be so worry today

Thats the different between u and me

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i dun like UHU

y uhu can be so strong

can be so smelly

i dun like uhu

it make me feel frustrated

not everything it can stick

but everybody say it can stick everything

finally

after busy for so many weeks

finally

get to rest

done everything

so happy

and so tired

holidays mood on 

working mood on

play around

work around

eat around

enjoy everywhere

good luck and all the best

Happy Holidays

still a big question mark

No one can tell

what actually happen out there

i can act like i dun know u

i even can act like i never meet u 

as wat u act infront of me

today is 18th of July

cutting

shirt printing

the mission for today

web design

just started

facing alot of question marks

bcs of forget everything

try to recall back

and i know it will be easy after everything back

name cards

finally out

satisfied mood

even happier when she say she like it very much

happy and sad

all within this week

happy 

bcs almost done everything

get praise from my favorite lecturer

get closer with printing shop ppls

n the most important thing

i get to listen his voice

sad

bcs of my favorite lecturer fare well

printing make me broke bcs

keep failed in printing

failed in web design coding

bcs he so stress

you, we and they

me, you, he and she

i realize we getting far and far

didnt even a word out

when we saw each other

a best buddy become an unknown ppl

is a weird feeling ever

i realize i getting crazier and crazier

after mix around with a joker

what a nice guy

like a brother to me

so caring yet so crazy

when we sit next to each other

the whole class is our sound

i realize i getting famous and famous

bcs of my lecturer promoting me around the college

haha

as a best student in drawing

as a best paper crafter

as a good student in designing

as a good student in illustration

but for me

i still need to improve to get even better

bcs of keep stay at printing shop printing

even the boss lady and the worker know me very well

and keep praise me

keep help me

even my little pendrive that i borrow to my friend

she know is mine

how awesome is that

i realize i even care and love u more than before

everyday text u is my habit

tell u how am i today

tell u what i feel

supporting u in physical way

but u didnt reply and i didnt waiting

bcs i know u are in the same with me

just we are far apart

until the end

I am Doreen

be myself, be original

By:Doreen