Wouldn't understand

Can't stop being down to the sea

I can't understand why

I can't understand how

Rolling on the bed for 2 days d

Still a lot of negative energy

My positive energy all gone

Buddy 2 words " jia you "

My tears non stop dropping 

Buddy one sentence " u can do it "

My heart straight drop to deep sea

This is the first time ever I feel so hard to stand up

This is the first time I feel like giving up

This is the first time I feel like so weak n sick

I pray hard for more courage for more positive energy

I really pray hard

I need a deep breath 

I need a good rest

I need an inner peace 

Can someone help me?