After one and a half year

after one and a half year
we finally meet up

as usual my heart beat fast
as usual u pick me up at bus station

u look more matured
u look more gentleman

whenever i see u
i cant control myself for falling to you

i wanna hold ur hand so badly
u are sitting right in front of me
but i still miss u badly

thanks for giving me a chance to step one step closer to know abt ur lifestyle

i love ur life.. being a student
i will help u up no matter what..

i just dont want to see u go the way i went through..
i will never let u..

a message to you

*no matter what happen, i always here for you.. you are the one i dont want to lost so so so badly.. i cant imagine the life without you.. i love you..*

Non stop waving

Non stop

The wave is non stop waving 

Sometimes strong sometimes soft

Some ppl enjoy it

Some ppl hate it

The little boy

I really down really lost

But he saved me

No matter who is he

I still love him as always do

He make me smile make me laugh

Just like he always do

I have been one and half year didn't see him

And I so miss him

We have a lot of things to do when we meet up

We gonna to have all the so called

"Positive food" to recharge our energy

He is the only one 

I want to trust and really trust

I wish I can maintain this relationship till we get old

I wish he always there when I need him

And so I always there when he need me

Pray hard

We always as good as now

We always love each other 

We always protect each other

I'm back

But I will use a different way to treat the one treat me differently

Stay strong

Stay firm

Stay happy

Wouldn't understand

Can't stop being down to the sea

I can't understand why

I can't understand how

Rolling on the bed for 2 days d

Still a lot of negative energy

My positive energy all gone

Buddy 2 words " jia you "

My tears non stop dropping 

Buddy one sentence " u can do it "

My heart straight drop to deep sea

This is the first time ever I feel so hard to stand up

This is the first time I feel like giving up

This is the first time I feel like so weak n sick

I pray hard for more courage for more positive energy

I really pray hard

I need a deep breath 

I need a good rest

I need an inner peace 

Can someone help me?

很累了

我真的不会了

我真的累了

到底要怎么做

到底怎么做才是对的

谁能教我

谁能告诉我

放弃

一切都没了

不放弃

一切都很难捱

迷失

真的很迷失

谋生

比谋生人还要谋生

坚持就会看到希望吗

还是坚持只会看到绝望

我不想后悔

我想坚持

可是我真的很累了

不解释说我不能沟通

解释了又说我自我

我到底应该怎么做

Calm

Sorry for being extremely curious for everything 

Curious

Stubborn

Over protect

Over confident

Jealous 

Selfish

Rude

I have all these nature attitude and personalities within myself

I always have a lot of questions

I always curious about everything I seen

I always try to know try to observed

And I notice I know too much

And I notice I observed too much 

Because of curiosity 

I have strong observation 

And I become over confident

When I become over confident 

I being too protective and start being selfish

When everything become selfish

I start to be stubborn and rude

Even not to accept people comments

And even jealous the one better than me

For me,

Being jealous is better than just admire

Jealous bring u stronger WANTED feeling

Admire bring u normal ACCEPT feeling

I am not the perfect one

But I do my best to be the perfect one

I am not good in everything

But I learn to be good in everything 

I am not smart to be a person 

But I observe how to be smart

I am not the friendly one

But I do give a smile to everyone

I am not the good good girl

But I do my best to be the supergirl

I am not the one for NEVERMIND

But I do my best not keep in mind 

I am not the kind hearted one

But i do my best not to be selfish with u

I can do whatever u ask to

Just because GIVE AND TAKE

I believe in karma

So anything I can help I will do

I step a wrong big step

To show everyone the perfect side

No one will accept the imperfection from me

I start a friendship with smile 

I start a friendship with love

I start a friendship with kind

I start a friendship with manners

And all these turn into a trouble now

A huge trouble

Once u show ur perfect side

They will always want the perfect one from u

Greedy

Everyone is too greedy

I treat u good treat u fine

Is not my living motto

But is my living attitude

Don't treat it as I should do this

Polite

Humble

These nature attitude can't find within me

I'm not the polite one

I'm not the humble one

I have super strong ego

I can't accept people taking granted from me

I can't accept people step on me

I can't accept people making fun of me

I can't accept people critics me

I can't accept people betray me

I can't accept people backstab me

Because of this strong ego

I can't put down my face and bow to u

I can't put away my ego and easily apologise

I can't knee down to beg u

Sorry to being so strong and so firm

Sorry to being so stubborn and so hard

Sorry to being so straight and so cool

Pls do accept this is me

The real one

The imperfect one

The stubborn one

A serious Saturday morning 

Realize

6 years 

I only realize I'm just nothing to him

Just a passenger

Just a normal people

Just a tiny one

Heart break into pieces

Tears drop into throat

How much I care

How much I love

How much I support

It never compete with some others one

I still the same

Choosing to be there for him

Always support 

Always love 

Always care

I have no reason why I do this 

Maybe I owe him in previous life