Different

Everything seem different right now

I choose to be quiet for all the time

I choose to be stupid for all the time

I getting frustrated 

I getting tired

I getting fed up

For everything he do

I speechless

I care less

I give up

For everything he decided

He always said he understand me

But no one understand me

He sleep while I working thought the whole night

He date while I rushing all the pending job

He enjoy while I just wanna to get some little time for cleaning my room

What I want now is time and car

I don't want to wait for him every morning

Follow him everywhere everyday and doing nth

I sick for these............. 

Girls wear nice clothes to work, I can't 

Girls wear handbag to work, I can't 

Girls wear heels to work, I can't 

I got to wear pants and shirt

Because I don't know where will I go everytday

I got to carry my laptop bag everywhere

Because I never know when he will ask me to open laptop

I got to wear flat or shoes 

Because I have no idea whether I need to go site or not

I don't need u to report everything to me

But at least let me know what's going on

I don't need u to tell me everything but at least when I involve in it pls inform me

I hate being ignored, I hate being transparent 

I even hate lies, I even hate to wait

I try to be positive all the while

I do my best to my perfect just bcs I don't want let people see my weakness

I smile but deep there is unhappy

I love but deep there is kind of hate

I laugh but deep there is crying

I talk but deep there is quiet

Be smart be myself

I choose to be quiet

An emo Sunday