Wouldn't understand

Can't stop being down to the sea

I can't understand why

I can't understand how

Rolling on the bed for 2 days d

Still a lot of negative energy

My positive energy all gone

Buddy 2 words " jia you "

My tears non stop dropping 

Buddy one sentence " u can do it "

My heart straight drop to deep sea

This is the first time ever I feel so hard to stand up

This is the first time I feel like giving up

This is the first time I feel like so weak n sick

I pray hard for more courage for more positive energy

I really pray hard

I need a deep breath 

I need a good rest

I need an inner peace 

Can someone help me?

很累了

我真的不会了

我真的累了

到底要怎么做

到底怎么做才是对的

谁能教我

谁能告诉我

放弃

一切都没了

不放弃

一切都很难捱

迷失

真的很迷失

谋生

比谋生人还要谋生

坚持就会看到希望吗

还是坚持只会看到绝望

我不想后悔

我想坚持

可是我真的很累了

不解释说我不能沟通

解释了又说我自我

我到底应该怎么做

Calm

Sorry for being extremely curious for everything 

Curious

Stubborn

Over protect

Over confident

Jealous 

Selfish

Rude

I have all these nature attitude and personalities within myself

I always have a lot of questions

I always curious about everything I seen

I always try to know try to observed

And I notice I know too much

And I notice I observed too much 

Because of curiosity 

I have strong observation 

And I become over confident

When I become over confident 

I being too protective and start being selfish

When everything become selfish

I start to be stubborn and rude

Even not to accept people comments

And even jealous the one better than me

For me,

Being jealous is better than just admire

Jealous bring u stronger WANTED feeling

Admire bring u normal ACCEPT feeling

I am not the perfect one

But I do my best to be the perfect one

I am not good in everything

But I learn to be good in everything 

I am not smart to be a person 

But I observe how to be smart

I am not the friendly one

But I do give a smile to everyone

I am not the good good girl

But I do my best to be the supergirl

I am not the one for NEVERMIND

But I do my best not keep in mind 

I am not the kind hearted one

But i do my best not to be selfish with u

I can do whatever u ask to

Just because GIVE AND TAKE

I believe in karma

So anything I can help I will do

I step a wrong big step

To show everyone the perfect side

No one will accept the imperfection from me

I start a friendship with smile 

I start a friendship with love

I start a friendship with kind

I start a friendship with manners

And all these turn into a trouble now

A huge trouble

Once u show ur perfect side

They will always want the perfect one from u

Greedy

Everyone is too greedy

I treat u good treat u fine

Is not my living motto

But is my living attitude

Don't treat it as I should do this

Polite

Humble

These nature attitude can't find within me

I'm not the polite one

I'm not the humble one

I have super strong ego

I can't accept people taking granted from me

I can't accept people step on me

I can't accept people making fun of me

I can't accept people critics me

I can't accept people betray me

I can't accept people backstab me

Because of this strong ego

I can't put down my face and bow to u

I can't put away my ego and easily apologise

I can't knee down to beg u

Sorry to being so strong and so firm

Sorry to being so stubborn and so hard

Sorry to being so straight and so cool

Pls do accept this is me

The real one

The imperfect one

The stubborn one

A serious Saturday morning 

Realize

6 years 

I only realize I'm just nothing to him

Just a passenger

Just a normal people

Just a tiny one

Heart break into pieces

Tears drop into throat

How much I care

How much I love

How much I support

It never compete with some others one

I still the same

Choosing to be there for him

Always support 

Always love 

Always care

I have no reason why I do this 

Maybe I owe him in previous life 

Different

Everything seem different right now

I choose to be quiet for all the time

I choose to be stupid for all the time

I getting frustrated 

I getting tired

I getting fed up

For everything he do

I speechless

I care less

I give up

For everything he decided

He always said he understand me

But no one understand me

He sleep while I working thought the whole night

He date while I rushing all the pending job

He enjoy while I just wanna to get some little time for cleaning my room

What I want now is time and car

I don't want to wait for him every morning

Follow him everywhere everyday and doing nth

I sick for these............. 

Girls wear nice clothes to work, I can't 

Girls wear handbag to work, I can't 

Girls wear heels to work, I can't 

I got to wear pants and shirt

Because I don't know where will I go everytday

I got to carry my laptop bag everywhere

Because I never know when he will ask me to open laptop

I got to wear flat or shoes 

Because I have no idea whether I need to go site or not

I don't need u to report everything to me

But at least let me know what's going on

I don't need u to tell me everything but at least when I involve in it pls inform me

I hate being ignored, I hate being transparent 

I even hate lies, I even hate to wait

I try to be positive all the while

I do my best to my perfect just bcs I don't want let people see my weakness

I smile but deep there is unhappy

I love but deep there is kind of hate

I laugh but deep there is crying

I talk but deep there is quiet

Be smart be myself

I choose to be quiet

An emo Sunday 

My 23rd Birthday Celebration

One day by one day

Time past really fast

And I getting elder and elder 

Here comes to my 23rd birthday 

As sister plan we go to have buffet dinner 

And I never know what she plan 

I wanted to celebrate with him very much

Wanted him to join me for dinner

But he reject due to our work is really loaded

And I understand

So my sisters and I went to Times Square tao

And he fetch me there and he leave

I still very exciting to have dinner there

So I just ignore everything

When we enjoying our food till half way

Suddenly tao people open birthday song 

And is normal bcs tao having promotion for May bday ppl

And I continue enjoy my nice food

Here comes again for bday song after 15 mins

And I saw few ppl walking to my way

And it really weird

Guess who I see.....

I was like a happy girl

Smile without my eye open

I saw him carrying cake walk to me

I know he plan everything with my sis

I never knew he will come and give a surprise

Didn't feel touch but feel really excited and happy

The whole day we just stick tgt and shop A tu Z till late evening 

He lies to me he got work to do

But in fact he go buy cake and turn back

I really really appreciate what he do

Hahaha

Here come with some of the pictures

*thanks my VIP for everything, one of my wish goes to u, wish u have a happy life..

Christmas....

The week Christmas

I ard bought a present for u

A present that u wish to have

And I hang in somewhere in ur car

But u never realize it

This make me feel fool

But in the end

I am the one tell u that have sth in ur car

And u guessed it right 

Is SnapBack 

I bought it online from Capcity

And I know u like it very much 

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And we have an exchange gift promise

So u go bought something that out of my expectation

On the day before Christmas

I bought myself a note 3

I can't make my mind to buy an expensive and nice cover

So I just bought a super cheap cover 

And the next day

U present me a note 3 cover

That's totally awesome

This is the one I plan to buy 

But the end I give up

Is so coincidence 

We went to same shop to bought the cover 

Our Christmas 

Also working like usual 

Never off never holidays

New year is coming

I wish to get in more income

So both of us can have prosperity new year

 

Merry Christmas and happy new year